Well I tried to start drinking again, and I didn't like it. Now what? Maybe something harder, like heroin. Hell I wouldn't even know where to buy it.

I've been burying myself in code, just to hide the reality of living. But the reality is still here. I'll soon be homeless and I need to deal with that.

And I'm angry at myself for being such a coward. I should just end my life, that would solve a lot of problems. And who am I fooling to think I can just step up to the highway, stick my thumb out and start a new life?

I really don't know what to do, fuck life...