My alcoholism worsens, as my depression deepens. I try daily to deal with it, fix it, but every day I fail. What can I do? I have no support system here, my best friend drinks with me, and I feel lost and defeated.

At least I'm not into hard drugs, like heroin, meth, coke or crack, so I should be grateful. I'm just a drunk, trying to numb all of the issues going on with my old body. Right now, I'm succeeding!

But I'm still just an old asshole, sitting here writing shit, and texting it down the throats of the few people I love. I am so sorry, and hopefully I can stop this now...