Man, Memorial Day is next weekend, I need to continue walking and working out like yesterday, try not to drink, take care of my arm, stay away from the park and try to like myself, just a little bit. I've given up on loving myself, that ain't never going to happen, but a smidgen of self respect would be terrific.

I put together a crockpot pulled pork yesterday, whipped up some fresh coleslaw, made sandwiches and shared it with Daniel. He said it was great and coming from a good old southern boy, that means something. It was a package of pre-cooked smoked pork, a can of pinto beans, a can of organic tomatoes, with a little southern seasoning.

Feeling very sad about that school shooting. Daniel works for the local school system and he said all doors to every school here are secured with card locks. No card, no entry. You don't need armed guards at every entrance, just solid electronics.

I'm trying to figure out an economical way to go see Brian in Jackson, then Riley and family in Seattle, then a flight back to Nashville. Checked out the painful 2.5 day Greyhound trip to Rexburg, ID for $223, then Rexburg to Seattle, a little over one day, is $151. They could be great photo blogging adventures, or bus trips from hell :-). The total cost to spend a few days with Brian and then see Riley is $374, plus expenses along the way. Then of course there is the flight back home.

I told Riley a while back that I wouldn't insult his family by showing up there drunk and stoned. I'm 2/3 of the way better now, and working on it...

Anyway, that's my current state in life, if you read this far, thanks.

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